Bunraku Seirei

... Reevaluating where I want to go with this journal. Will return when I decide which direction to take it in, when the Holy Spirit points the way, and when--I hope--my laptop works again.

So...Tah!

WordCount: Lots.
ChrisCount: 7.1k

No one ever promised tomorrow
Sunshine days, gray-blue skies
Car crash, splattered red
No one ever promised sunrise

WordCount: 84.5k
ChrisCount: 5.1k

Scrubs.

Mmmm.

JD: Don't you ever worry about having a girlfriend who's so demanding?

Turk: Sometimes. But then I watch Roots to remind myself how good I have it.

Cracked up.

I've also been working on my newest fiction project. It shall be a while before it's ready, but... Ah. This one's a keeper.

I hope.

WordCount: 82.5
ChrisCount (new prjct): 4k

Off to watch Charlie Brown. Ta!

So. Long time no blog.

Been busy with my newest idea. Yes. The glee drips from my fingers as I rub my hands together.

No. Wait.

That's just cheap lotion.

WordCount: 80.5k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: done! :]

Live. For the now.

Worrying gets you nowhere, and pulls you away from God. Trust Him. Please!

Jabez Moments: Did a lot of sister-comforting today, convinced her to go to confession with me, learned a bit about dad's religious background (raised Bap, baptized Cath in college), had sis say, "Thanks, you're really good at cheering me up" and "Thank you for being nice to me."

Yes. That was a beaming moment.

Even let her kiss me and hold my hand a bunch. Felt so good inside.

WordCount: 78-9k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 26/28

Just watched the Clique movie. Two times. And counting.

Yessss.

Don't judge me. Time to hide.

--Though: We need not hide, if we have no fear, and if we follow God and do what is right, we need not have fear.--

Jabez Appointments:
Buddhist bff came to me to talk about Christianity and conversion and hearing a sermon and liking it.

Met a buncha people at Writer's Club who are Catholic, and who go to my church, so maybe they'll be at the Youth Meeting!

Ignored my fears and facebook'd the leader of the youth group to see how I could get involved. And there's a meeting and a cheap mini-missions trip coming up v soon! I think God wants me to go--and He's gonna make it be great.

WordCount: 78-9k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 24/27

I have a little something new in mind.

Hee hee.

WordCount: 75k
Jabez'd: Yes!
Jabez Day: 23/27

Ahh, the classic-osity of Charlie Brown.

A Charlie Brown Christmas--how simple, how wonderful, how sweet. And I keep feeling sorry for Charlie Brown.

I remember being shocked when I was little upon realizing his real name was Charles...

I do not like the name Charles.

I like the name Charlie. And Willy. And Mason.

Not George.

I like Shakespeare.

Not Wilson.

The End. Laptop still out of commission.

WordCount: 74k
Jabez'd: Yes!
Jabez Day: 22/27

If you believe in God, you don't let any of your problems get you down, at all--cos they don't matter, no they don't, uh-huh.

The end.

For like, now.

WordCount: 72k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 20/28

It's a little big pathetic, I know.

Love.

What love makes you do: stare at the back of his head, wait for him to turn around and then breathe out slowly, in utmost bliss (because he is the absolute most beautiful boy ever to exist); fix your hair when he sees you, then squeal because he looked your way so obviously he must be madly in love; tell yourself horrible lies about all the girls he's ever met in his life, and then believe them.

And then, even when you can't remember why you love him, when he's annoyed you and ignored you and when every teen horoscope, and Abby from Dear Abby, and your best friends have declared him worth no one's time--

You still can't stop staring at the back of his head.

Sigh.

Sometimes you get overwhelmed, but you have to ask God for help and have faith that he'll carry you through. That's the only way to keep your head above water.

Cos like, if your head is below water, you'll drown.

Blub.

Like in that one Stephen King book where that guy goes to the haunted hotel where one guy had died by drowning in his soup.

Currently watching Ritchie Rich. Did I spell that right?

Cannot blog properly without laptop. Sniff.

WordCount: 69-70ish
Jabez'd: Yup.
Jabez Day: 17/28--I'll finish right at Christmas! Yayz!

I'd always heard people complain over the internet that their laptops had died, or their harddrives or exploded, or their OS had suddenly contracted a strange and deadly virus and their entire system was about to whither and die.

I just...never thought it would happen to me.

At least it happened after NaNoWriMo; if Skippi the Laptop had decided to get sick on November 1st, I'd have had conniptions.

So my father is operating on it. Dear God, please help us all.

And that's not breaking the second commandment.

Amen.

WordCount: 70.5k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 16/28

God wants to bless you because He loves you, and besides, He's a giving God! Whether they're big or little, God's blessings are something you can experience--they fill you up inside. God blesss you for a bigger purpose too--so you can be a blessing to others. It just doesn't get any better than "the blessed life." But there's a catch. You have to ask God for it. -- The Prayer of Jabez for Teens

Five minutes to midnight!

You know, just because I'm half asleep.

WordCount: 69.5
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 15/28

If all the world's a stage, who's the playwright, and who calls curtain?

I recommend xtrlive.com--life changing? Psshyeah.

And more often I listen to The Bored Again Christian Podcast--Christian music in rock, punk, pop, so that you don't even know you're listening to Christian music. It is teh love.

WordCount: Same as yesterday...and the day before...
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 14/28 (I think I had to rewind a week. But now I'm middle-aged, yay!)

The end of the semester is nigh and met with bittersweet departures and tentative greetings.

I'm dropping World History and Spanish for Algebra II and Biology. Um, excuse me?

Isn't the world odd in the way it works? My friend Anne asked me to come to a meeting of the China Care Club with her today after school, and I was having my doubts but did it anyway. I followed her into the meeting room.

The club leader looked up from her clipboard. "New member?"

Anne nodded. I fingered a wave.

The leader pulled a pen from behind her ear. "What's your name?"

"Stacey Frank."

The leader looked up, looked down, then stared at my face. "Did you submit something to the literary magazine?"

"Why, yes. Yes I did." My insides were glowing. I felt them.

"Your submissions were great." The leader grinned. "I'm the editor of the magazine."

Why yes, China Care Club, I will join you forever! Just get me into the magazine, please.

WordCount: 68.5k
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 20/28

I've been tossing some ideas around.

Fun, no?

I want to write a novel--a series of novels actually, but let's take it one step at a time--and post it on FictionPress, which I decided after coming up with the idea for a novel; and, after I've mulled it over, the bare bones look like this:

Title: Cross'd
Category: Young Adult - Spiritual/Drama
Summary: If you put enough monkeys in Catholic school, one of them will find Jesus. Ditto for teenagers.

Subtitle for Cross'd as of yet undecided, but I'm actually really inspired to write this.

And oh, eff, it's getting late and I still have to catch up on other writing and homework. Mr. To-Do List, have you gotten fatter since the last time I wrote you? Time to lose weight.

WordCount: 66.5k
Jabez'd: Yes. (If this ever says no, then hit me. Really, really hard.)
Jabez Day: 19/28

U save ur game b4 u die... shouldn't u let Jesus save ur soul b4 u die IRL?

Taken from http://objectiveministries.org/zounds/gaming.html.

So. I've been feeling pretty funky chicken lately, which I just decided is a good thing, because I've been feeling inspired to write. Two new, totally wonderful ideas in the past two days (or was it three?)--and they're both Christian fiction, with which I've just become enamored. I cracked open the book my godmother sent a year ago that I wouldn't touch with a dead skunk on a ten-foot-pole, and then from my library I ordered four books in the Diary of a Teenage Girl series. Hello, wonderfuls. I owe those sweet finds to someone from writing camp who was reading one back when I made every excuse possible not to read, write or generally affiliate myself with the stuff. I wanted my writing separate from God 100%, thank you.

But now that I've started reading ChrisFic, I've got two le awesomisimo ideas.

Funky chicken, indeed.

I also have homework, which is a bit of a letdown, but once I do some more planning I think I'll be ready to step back into the world of posting on the interwebs.

WordCount: Same as yesterdee.
Jabez'd: Yes.
Jabez Day: 18/28

Shh. I'm sleeping.

And God is amazing. I think I'm finally starting to realize what He wants me to do. :]

WordCount: 66.5
Jabez'd: Yup!
JDay: 17/28. I think.

Well. Yesterday's entry got thrown out with the collapse of my internet. Makes me a bit sad, really.

Ah well.

I find myself entranced now by Christian fiction. I used to avoid that stuff like the plague, making excuses, telling it, Thanks but no thanks. But I picked up Stuck in the Sky, and I read the first five chapters straight through, barely able to pull myself away. This is some durn good stuff.

So now I'm gonna look into more of the same. So far, I recommend Stuck in the Sky and anything in the Diary of a Teenage Girl series.

Short entry, awkward computer. Ciao!

WordCount: 65.7k
Jabez'd: Yup!
Jabez Day: 9--or 16/28

The more you give, the more you get, not on earth but in heaven.

And I can live with that.

Bible-ness Learned Today:

Strength is found in peace and quiet. Meditation, time alone with God, is good.

So like, I can go all monk and be all meditative, and that's good, and like, it gives monks super strength--like, you know those monks who carry giant weapons around in JRPGs, and when they join your party they're all like HUWAA! and then they crush stuff with their staffs and nunchucks.

Or like, the bald dude in Avatar: TLA. You know. The Avatar.

Speaking of which, I have not found true satisfaction in any of the Avatar games: I remember being eleven and spending hours playing the first one and thinking it was the cooliest thing ever. Then I went back and played it a couple days ago and was like, wow. Give me back the last forty-five minutes of my life.

Same with Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End. I put in a fotchton of hours playing it with my dad last summer--at least, it seemed like a fotchton, because we beat a level a day and that took, pathetically, an hour per level--and picked it up Sunday night.

Can you say, slight piratical fail?

I played it on PS2. It wasn't horrible by any means, but after Crisis Core and God of War: Chains of Olympus, my video game pallet has wizened a bit. Hack and slash games don't quite do it for me anymore. If my thumbs hurt after five minutes of combat, something is wrong. And not with my thumbs.

As of now I'm downloading the PSP demo of Siphon Filter: Dark Mirror. Possibly I should have checked out its reviews first. Ah well, it is teh free.

WordCount: 63k
Jabez'd: Yup!
Jabez Day: 7 / 28